How can fat bring so much sadness, when food brings so much joy?

Fat

Omogosh I am so fat right now.  I know that is probably the default wananrexic (anorexic wanna-be) line but still, its totally true.  I had a huge slice of banana cream pie today and my stomach is still recovering.  Legit.  At least its only another week until spring break, yay!  On an incredibly worse note though I am 104 lbs I think so i am not in a blogging mood.. sorry guys!

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Dizzy

Hey, sorry I haven't posted in nearly a week, I have been really busy lately. Do you guys ever get all lightheaded and dizzy when you are dieting or fasting? That's like what I'm getting right now. Thats kind of good news I guess, plus a bunch of people are telling me how skinny I am (I don't think so but It makes me feel good still (: ). And I only weigh 102 pounds AND I just went out to eat. So all in all a good week because I feel like I am walking on air. Stay strong <3

Hey everyone! Hows it going?  The weather here is great, I really need to get a tan to make my fat pale legs look a little better. I'm 103 again, but that's really not bad with the amount of crap I have been eating.  I think I have reached my plateau, plus I weigh a bit more since I have so much muscle from ballet.  Nevertheless, I need to lose weight but latley I have been too lazy and emotional to. Like I was saying, I always fall apart late at night.  Sometimes I want to just like go to bed at 7:00 just so I don'
at have the chance to eat.  Think that would raise any eyebrows in my household?  Yeah right.

P.S. I am posting that legitimate banana ice cream recipe right after this :)

Sore Toes and Shamrock Shakes

Mmmm... shamrock shakes.  I love that time of year at McDonald's. Its really the best time of year. Apart from the 416 calories in a small that is.  Well my toes hurt.  I had to do two rigorous pointe classes this week so far. ouch.  I wore flip flops the other day to school and my friend was like "Dude what did u do, slam your foot in a door?"  (at the time i had most of my toes covered in band aids due to ugly blisters). Yeah it was pretty funny; kind of.  Talking about pointe shoes, what type do y'all have?  I have Chacott Veronese II, they are kind of orange but are holding up really well so far so I like them.

102lbs

Hey at least its not 103 or 104 again.  That would seriously suck, but with all the crap I have been eating lately i wouldn't be surprised.  At the moment i am going to go eat a oatmeal-scotchie. Can you believe that?  I have learned that i am very strong throughout the morning and afternoon, but once it gets to the evening I just fall apart.  Its my retarded habit of (dare i say it) yummy desserts and snacks.  Its like my stupid body just cant go to sleep on an empty stomach.  The rest of the day is a breeze, I love the lightheaded feeling of hunger. Its my high.  But at night I just cant because I am around my wonderful family who cooks me absolutely awesome food filled with love. Its enough guilt throwing out most of my specially prepared lunch each day at school. I can't bear to come home and turn down dinner too.  Anyway, they would notice, but i don't even know if that would be a good thing or a bad thing.  My mom already said I looked thin and asked me if I am trying to lose weight.  I think it's nice somebody is noticing.  I don't really understand though because I look as fat as ever.

Soup (and random rambling)

Mmmm... baked potato soup

Wow those previous pictures sure messed up the layout of my site.  This one didn't though.... good. Haha. Sorry they are really blurry, i took them with my crappy cell phone.  I didn't go to school today, everyone is sick this time of year. oh well. I'm probably going to eat some progresso soup (baked potato with bacon 360 calories per whole can).  Sounds yummy. I have been drinking a lot of juice lately, like for breakfast since i cant have coffee. I am really liking cran-grape at the moment, its like the morning energy burst i need to get out of bed :)  Sorry this post was so boring, but nothing is really going on.  I am still leading in ballet, so i better feel better by tomorrow so it stays that way.

A sharpie is better than a knife... Trust me.

Missed the Leap Year

Hey there everyone! 102... same as this morning though, so thats not bad... I guess. Did anyone do anything useful with their leap year? I think I did the opposite haha...
(Donut holes are my weakness)
but it's ok cuz I managed to get down to 102 all day today anyway! I tried to make this awesome banana ice cream but I put it in a glass dish in the freezer like an idiot and it exploded XD
great. Just great. It's probably just fate's way of telling me i'm too fat. As if the mirror doesn't tell me that enough.

I'll post a legit banana ice cream recipe later...

Bye bye... Stay sane everybody!